& I awoke on my 40th birthday with relief. The previous weekend I was way too sick to participate in any grand plans that were on the agenda. But, hey One thing I have learned in my 40 years thus far, nothing ever goes as planned and to embrace what life throws at you. Idealism of anything does create disappointment and it is far easier to have no expectations:) Smile and go with the flow...
The morning began with feeling better and heading out with a dear friend to check out Sawyer and Co., a mid-century inspired diner. Here is a great article on how this lovely place came about. Oh man it did not disappoint and I could seriously live there! The food with its southern Louisiana twist was perfection. Best southern breakfast I have had since being a kid in Northern Florida. The cheese grits alone... And the adult Hurricane on tap was a 40 bonus. I Could spent the day there, especially at there outdoor seating atop of astro turf. Ooh la la! But, time was ticking and we headed downtown Austin- Dirty 6th.
Austin Sidenote: this town knows how to party. I mean all ages... It truly is the land of Misfits and anything goes. The energy here is crazy and I am still trying to find my niche. Literally since I have stepped foot here on Labor Day weekend. I have never had so much fun, but man I am paying for it now. This girl is on a new mission to slow down and act my age for a bit. The rest of my birthday was a drunken blur that only Bridget Jones could comprehend:) In all seriousness this is not what I want my life to be...chasing the next party. Been there and done that in my 20's. I moved down here to live a more creative life and focus on my writing. Not turn into the female version of Ernest Hemingway. Ugh. Don't get me wrong, I will continue to enjoy a few spirits here and there. But, I want more. Make this new life work, enjoy the unique people, places and things around me. And there is a lot of that. I am not proud of how I have not focused more on that. But, it is never too late:)
I want to find in my 40's. My creative passions realized. Focus on building on the good changes I have made thus far. Live, love and hope in the moment. Continue to Heal from the very painful last 4 years of my life. Find those 2nd chances, I know that they are out there. Just need to do some finding... Seriously!!!! Thank you everyone that made my Birthday so special down here! Sorry that I was not at my finest:( Love each and everyone of you. Love, C.